What is it about computers and programming that interests you or sparks a fire? You said in general, but I feel like that is a very wide array of possibilities.

I don’t think any amount of money is worth your mental being if you’re showing up to work in utter distress. Based on your credentials only...you seem to have your head on straight and a bright individual, your skills will be valued elsewhere. I would look to save more of your income by cutting expenses, and figure out a way to quit your current job. Take a few months off and work on yourself, find out what you actually want to do and find a path to that.

Good luck!