Yes. Correct. Also yours is a a bullshit interpretation of a bullshit constitutional amendment that should be amended out. Also you’re not always the best judge of your behavior, which is a natural consequence of the fact that there’s more than one person inhabiting this planet.
I never expressed an interpretation of the 2nd amendment. Clearly you jumped to conclusions about that, as you did my ability to judge my mental state. I'd be perfectly happy to form a militia with some of my comrades, and have the right to bear arms restricted to that context, so long as the government likewise recognized that the right to bear arms has nothing at all to do with personal defense, and thus justifications around "civilians don't need X weapon because it's a weapon of war" don't stand muster.
I'm sure your wife sleeps tight knowing if someone breaks in the only thing protecting her sanctity is your begging. Sounds like you're more concerned with killing yourself than protecting.
Laws circumscribing the behavior of 330 million people should not be made on the basis of lurid rape fantasies that center you as a righteous hero and you personally should not have a gun.